My testimony of the power of prayer has definitely been strengthened over the past couple weeks.
The day after our first ultrasound (2 weeks ago) my doctor called to say that there were some abnormal collections of fluid around the baby's organs, and that he wanted to check the baby again in 2 weeks. Since that day we have been praying that the baby would be healthy, but also that we would be able to feel peace and comfort no matter what the outcome was. I was really upset and stressed out for a few days. But then I realized that Heavenly Father has always taken care of us, and I knew that everything would turn out OK, even if the outcome wasn't what I wanted.
Today we had that second ultrasound, and we learned that the baby stopped developing about 2 weeks ago. There was no longer a heartbeat. Even though I had prepared myself for bad news, it was still very hard to hear that the baby was gone. I cried for a few minutes, and we just sat in the room by ourselves for a while. My doctor and the ultrasound tech were very nice and understanding. I'm thankful that I had a couple weeks to prepare myself and to accept that things might not work out as I obviously wanted them to.
Of course this is difficult to deal with, but I really do feel like Heavenly Father has helped me to see the bigger picture. It is comforting for me to know that our baby is back with Heavenly Father. I know that everything is going to be OK. I am so thankful for the gospel, and the knowledge that we have of an eternal plan. I still have some hard things to deal with because the baby has not come on his/her own, but I'm hoping that it will go as smoothly as possible.
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i'm sorry to hear that, ash! i'm praying for you and nate. i'm glad that you are feeling comforted at this time.
Oh Ashley... I'm so sorry. That story is too real for me, that's very similar to how it was when I lost my baby. It's okay to feel bad and to be sad about this. I'm glad that you are feeling comfort though at this time. Hang in there. If you ever need to talk I'm always here!
I'm really so sorry. I'll definately keep you in my prayers.
That is very sad and I'm sorry for your loss, but it sounds like your head is in the right place. I don't know if it's comforting or not to know that this is so common and happens to a lot of girls, including me. It is still hard for your own situation but just know there are a lot of people who care for you and know exactly how you feel.
Also, if you are just waiting for the baby to come out on it's own, which is what I did, one day all of the sudden it does hurt really bad for about an hour (like full on contractions) and then it all passes and you feel normal again. I'm not trying to gross you out just give you a heads up, but I'm sure your Dr. explained it. Mine did not and I had no idea what to expect!
I'm so sorry Ashley. It's so exciting to find out you're pregnant and you start planning your future life with this unborn child that you love so much already and it's so disappointing and sad to have that taken away. I'm so sorry and will keep you in my prayers.
I'm so sorry Ashley- I know how much you were looking forward to this child. You and your family will be in our prayers.
Ashley, I'm really sorry to hear that. As I was reading this, your testimony was really powerful to me. Isn't it wonderful that we have the knowledge of eternal families and the gospel in our life. You will see your baby again and he/she will be perfect. Hang in there, definately call me if your need to. You and Nate will be in our prayers.
I don't even want to leave a comment, because I feel so personally connected to people who loose a baby, that it seems almost too... Not sure. Too un-personal??
Anyway, know that I cried when I read your post, and my heart truly does go out to you; it breaks a little each time I hear a story like this... I too have been there. Yikes. Three times before J, and two times before Hugh.
I LOVE the picture that you put up. I have never seen it before, and I LOVE IT! It's so precious, and perfect.
Hang in there girlio.
I feel like "Our Blog Spot." I wish I could be more eloquent or that you could know how I feel for you from a million miles away. But, I love you.
Im so sorry Ashley. That has got to be the most difficult thing to go through! We are thinking of you guys!
Hey Ash,
Ryan ran into Nate at the gym and he told Ryan. I just wanted to let you know that I went through this at 11 1/2 weeks in September. I still get sad, but I think time helps...there isn't anything that I can really say to make you feel better, but just know that I'm thinking of you at this time...I truly know how you're feeling and understand your loss. You're in our prayers~
-Stephanie Ellersick
I am so sorry. I am glad you are doing as good as you can in this situation and I appreciate your message. It's nice to have a reminder of the lords plan and his comfort.
you're in my prayers ashley! my mother-in-law told me about her miscarriage lately and that she knew that that little spirit would come again. i know Heavenly Father has a plan for your family :)
We are so sorry,we are thinking of you guys. I don't have words to explain other than we care for your family.
Ashley and Nate, we love you and your family and have you in our prayers. I am so sorry for your loss and am greatful that we do have prayer especially in times like these. You are an amazing woman and are so strong. Please let us know if there's anything that we can do. We love you.
my dear sweet girl. I'm so sorry for this loss. Just know you will see your baby again. I love you always and I am always always here for you. I'm in Gig Harbor now, so i'm just a leap (a big leap) away.
Oh Ashley, I am so sorry to hear this. It's so hard to know the right thing to say. I'm sure there isn't a "right thing". But, I can't immagine how hard it is, but you are very strong and I too am glad you are feeling comforted. Like everyone else has said you guys will be in our prayers for sure. We love you guys.
Ash, you know I love you and I wish I was closer so I could see you. As I've already mentioned, Nate and I are praying for you and I'm so glad you've felt the effects of everyone's prayers. Call me whenever you want and need to talk. But don't feel like you have to talk about it all over again, I know you don't want to tell the story 14 times.
Love you
I'm so sorry to hear that Ashley. I cried when I read what happened. I'm so glad your faith is so strong, and I know Heavenly Father is aware of your pain. I have a feeling that you're going to get pg again in no time, and everything will be fine. Again, I'm so sorry. You guys are in out thoughts and prayers
wow, ash. i feel like a blog comment just doesn't cut it. i've been there. there's really nothing to say. you're handling it SO well, i think. i was an absolute mess. i love your perspective. you're strong.
i hope the pain/grief isn't too over-bearing. luckily you have your little Paige. kids can always help us realize that life rocks... love ya. you'll be in my prayers tonight.
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