I'm so annoyed with myself. I suffer from The Grass Is Always Greener Syndrome and I really need to change it. Maybe just getting this off my chest will help...
I really liked living in Liberty Lake. I always knew that area had a lot to offer, and there are a million things that make it great, but after a while I was ready for a change. Nate kept telling me that we would never find an area like Liberty Lake again. He always reminded me of the things we would miss about it, but I just didn't feel like Liberty Lake was our final destination. So I was excited about moving to Vancouver because it was something new and different. But now, big surprise... I'm missing Liberty Lake so badly. I knew I would miss it, but I didn't think it would be this hard.
Don't get me wrong, this area is really nice. It's beautiful and there are lots of things to see, do, eat, etc. Plus, my best friend from high school is not too far away. (I'm so glad you're here, Jenn!) But I'm still longing for the place we called home. I wonder if I would love this area just as much as Liberty Lake if I had been living here for the past 5 years. Maybe I would.
But for now, I'm just really missing my old life. I miss my ward, my friends and family, my neighborhood... lots of things. Plus, Nate is so much busier with work now than he was in Liberty Lake, so I just feel so alone here. I know it's gonna get better, but for now this is hard.
Thanks for listening.
Liberty Lake photos stolen from Pinterest
“The reason people find it so hard to be happy is that they always see the past better than it was, the present worse than it is, and the future less resolved than it will be.”
– Marcel Pagnol
8 comments:
Sounds like we need a girls night..soon.
I hear ya Ashley. I miss Vegas so bad!!! Mostly I miss my job and my friends, because in reality my life in Vegas really sucked. It's just so hard to be in a new place and have to start all over. I feel super lonely in my new ward and neighborhood. Nobody knows me. It will come with time, for both of us. Hang in there girl!
Oh Ashley, I'm sorry you're having such a hard time. For the record, Liberty Lake really misses you too. I think that even when you're looking forward to a change there's still an adjustment period that's difficult. I'm sure you'll love it over there when you give it more time. It's such a great area to live with Portland so close and the coast...maybe one of my most favorite places ever is the Oregon coast. I'm a tad jealous you live so close to it :) Just take it one day at a time and you'll get there; it'll get better. Remember, the grass is always greener where you water it! Love you, friend.
Ashley, I definitely understand! By the time I really started liking Washington and feeling like "home" there, we moved. That's when I had found friends, enjoyed my ward, surroundings, etc. But it takes time! I know that it is hard to wait, but you have had such a huge transition. Not just a move, but a family change to 3 kids. Just the move would have been enough of a transition. Seriously, you're such an awesome girl and you will love it there just as much as Liberty Lake I bet! Hang in there!
Also, when were in Lacey we lived in 3 different wards in 3 years. By the 3rd ward my new way of thinking was to at least meet one person per Sunday at church, or when I was at the library or the park.
This was going WAY out of my comfort zone, b/c I like to wait til people introduce themselves to ME since I'm the new one :) But I made so many friends that way, and I have carried that with me to our 2 wards we have been in colorado, and have found myself feeling "part" of the ward much quicker. Also, I have met some of my BEST friends in each ward in the nursing lounge :) Much more time to chat and arrange playdates or just relate to eachother, so take advantage of all your nursing time at church!!!
You're awesome ashley!
I really liked the previous comments. Moving is hard. It takes time to make friends and feel like home. Breanna's advice about not waiting for others to speak first is very good advice. You had a lot of BIG stuff going on all at once. Be patient with yourself. And it's ok to be honest. We have all been there.
Maybe it's not where you live, but what you're doing each day. Make some new goals and try some new things. Then you can look FORWARD to something exciting happening in the future. The future is always better anyway. Think about it. Nobody wants to re-live puberty.
I am feeling your pain. I wasn't that excited to leave, after ten years I knew exactly what I was leaving. I'm totally alone too. We should chat sometime but that three hour time difference is a killer! Hang in there :) I will too.
Moving is definitely an adjustment. There are no young people in my new ward. Really, the next closes girl in age is 38. So, that's been difficult. I had tons of really good close friends in Vegas with kids the same age as mine. I've been keeping super busy with the boys and getting out of the house and doing something new every day and it's kept me from getting sad or missing everyone too much. And it actually has helped build my relationship with the boys even, since I'm spending most of my time with them instead of chatting with the other moms while they play with the other kids. Just try to stay busy and it'll get better each day!
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