Wednesday, July 16, 2008
One of the best days of my life...
Tomorrow Paige will be a year old! I can't believe a year has past already. I have a post coming later to celebrate her wonderful birth, but I wanted to start at the beginning. This is gonna take a while...
On November 15th, 2005 I found out that I have endometriosis. I was extremely devastated because I have always wanted children badly (endometriosis can make it difficult to get pregnant for some people). I assumed the worst- that I would never have children, or that we would be trying to conceive for years, while spending thousands on fertility treatments. Nate is always so positive, and he tried to keep me sane.
About 7 months after I was "diagnosed", we started trying to get pregnant. For about 4 months, I obsessively took my temperature every morning to see when I was ovulating and all that stuff. I read lots of books about getting pregnant and it was all I could think about. I probably took 10 pregnancy tests during those few months, and they were all negative.
During the 5th month of trying, I finally got sick of obsessing and I realized that it really wasn't up to me. I stopped taking my temperature and just tried not to think about it. A few weeks later, on November 15th 2006, I started to really think I might be pregnant. My period was just a day or two late, but I was feeling exhausted all the time and I would wake up starving in the middle of the night, which was really weird for me. I told Nate that I might really be prego this time, but he didn't take me seriously because I had convinced myself I was pregnant a million times.
The next morning, I dropped Nate off at the BYU-Hawaii library so that he could work on a group project, and then I drove to the Laie pharmacy, without him knowing. I got a pregnancy test and rushed home to see if my suspicions were right this time. Almost as soon as I set the little stick down, I saw the plus sign starting to appear. I started bawling right away. I had really convinced myself I was pregnant so many times before, so I just couldn't believe this was actually it! I felt incredibly blessed. I had to tell Nate right away.
I wanted to plan a cute way to tell him, but I just couldn't wait, so I just put some baby clothes that I had collected, along with the positive test, in a little bag and drove to the library (yes, fellow TVA residents- I drove the tenth of a mile to the library). I found Nate and pulled him out of the study room where he was busily working with his business group. He didn't have a clue what could be so urgent. I gave him the bag when we got outside and said it was an early Christmas present. He was really confused. He opened it up and said, "You bought more baby clothes?" :) And I said, "What else is in there?" He pulled out the test and said, "Are you serious?!!" He was so happy, but kind of skeptical. He kept saying, "Are you sure?" We were both so thrilled. It was by far one of the best days of my life. Two weeks later I started throwing up everyday, which continued for about 2 months, but it was all worth it.
I took this with my phone since we didn't have a camera at the time. Not a great picture- I know.
On November 15th, 2005 I found out that I have endometriosis. I was extremely devastated because I have always wanted children badly (endometriosis can make it difficult to get pregnant for some people). I assumed the worst- that I would never have children, or that we would be trying to conceive for years, while spending thousands on fertility treatments. Nate is always so positive, and he tried to keep me sane.
About 7 months after I was "diagnosed", we started trying to get pregnant. For about 4 months, I obsessively took my temperature every morning to see when I was ovulating and all that stuff. I read lots of books about getting pregnant and it was all I could think about. I probably took 10 pregnancy tests during those few months, and they were all negative.
During the 5th month of trying, I finally got sick of obsessing and I realized that it really wasn't up to me. I stopped taking my temperature and just tried not to think about it. A few weeks later, on November 15th 2006, I started to really think I might be pregnant. My period was just a day or two late, but I was feeling exhausted all the time and I would wake up starving in the middle of the night, which was really weird for me. I told Nate that I might really be prego this time, but he didn't take me seriously because I had convinced myself I was pregnant a million times.
The next morning, I dropped Nate off at the BYU-Hawaii library so that he could work on a group project, and then I drove to the Laie pharmacy, without him knowing. I got a pregnancy test and rushed home to see if my suspicions were right this time. Almost as soon as I set the little stick down, I saw the plus sign starting to appear. I started bawling right away. I had really convinced myself I was pregnant so many times before, so I just couldn't believe this was actually it! I felt incredibly blessed. I had to tell Nate right away.
I wanted to plan a cute way to tell him, but I just couldn't wait, so I just put some baby clothes that I had collected, along with the positive test, in a little bag and drove to the library (yes, fellow TVA residents- I drove the tenth of a mile to the library). I found Nate and pulled him out of the study room where he was busily working with his business group. He didn't have a clue what could be so urgent. I gave him the bag when we got outside and said it was an early Christmas present. He was really confused. He opened it up and said, "You bought more baby clothes?" :) And I said, "What else is in there?" He pulled out the test and said, "Are you serious?!!" He was so happy, but kind of skeptical. He kept saying, "Are you sure?" We were both so thrilled. It was by far one of the best days of my life. Two weeks later I started throwing up everyday, which continued for about 2 months, but it was all worth it.
I took this with my phone since we didn't have a camera at the time. Not a great picture- I know.
Sunday, July 13, 2008
Saturday, July 12, 2008
This is pretty random, but I just read this book and I its really great. I think everyone should read it. It will open your mind and change your life. Maybe...Well, it changed mine anyway. Nate has been reading all of Robert Kiyosaki's books quickly and he said I need to also if we're ever gonna be business partners and make millions. :) I resisted at first, but I'm glad I read it. Have you read it?
Thursday, July 3, 2008
Hiking and swimming
Today we hiked around Liberty Lake (where we live) with Nate's family, and it was pretty fun. Paige enjoyed it too! Then we all swam in our apartment pool for the first time this summer. I don't know what has taken us so long. It was really nice because its been about 100 degrees for the past week or more. I'm really not a fan of hot hot weather. I like it about 78 degrees-ish. Anyway here are some pictures of our day. Wednesday, July 2, 2008
Dieting
Being on a "diet" is really depressing. It is amazing how it affects your mood when you know you can't eat whatever you want. But luckily, when you see results, you realize that its all worth it.I guess "diet" isn't the best word because it makes you think of crazy fads or starvation. Anyway, for about 2 weeks I've been eating extra healthy, and also eating a lot less than I normally do. I'm a huge fan of food and up until a couple weeks ago, me and food had been getting a little too close. I guess you could say we were BFF's. But thanks to swimsuit season, I have decided to end our unhealthy relationship. I've lost 3 or 4 pounds so far. Its really exciting seeing results, and hopefully I will be able to lose about 5 more.
Also, I just got the book "The Best Life Diet" by Bob Greene. He is Oprah's trainer and he always has really good, sensible advice. I haven't started it yet, but I have high hopes that its gonna be life changing. Maybe its the title... it sucked me right in. Anyway, has anyone read it?
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
Paige's Eye Surgery
Here are some pictures from Paige's surgery today for her clogged tear ducts (in chronological order). We had to wait for 2 hours before she finally went in, and that was really hard because she was really tired and hungry. She was not allowed to eat beforehand because of the anesthesia. There were some fun toys in the waiting area though, so it wasn't too bad. When they finally took her away to the operating room we decided to run down to the cafeteria to get some breakfast real quick. As we were finishing up, we heard an announcement on the intercom: "Will the parents of Paige please call the operator." I was kind of freaking out because I thought something was wrong, but it turned out that she was done and they were looking for us. I felt like a neglectful parent! As we came into the recovery room, I could hear Paige crying a little bit and she was just waking up from the anesthesia. She was looking all over for us and all she could see was strangers. Then she saw me and reached for me to pick her up, but I couldn't because she was hooked up to some monitors. She had bloody tears running down her face and she looked so sad. But I was able to nurse her right away, and then everything was fine. We're home now and she is asleep. I think she will sleep a lot today. We're just really hoping the surgery was a success and her ducts will stay open.
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