The main things on my mind lately are:
#1. Training for my Half-Marathon (August 6th)
#2. Getting pregnant
#3. Trying to lose a few pounds (surprise, surprise.)
#1. My training is going well, and I'm really enjoying running. I never thought that day would come. Running with friends has made all the difference for me. The longest we've run is 6 miles so far and it was actually one of my most enjoyable runs. Saturday we ran 5 miles and it was really tough for some reason. Every run is so different. I'm so happy to be doing this because I've wanted to do a Half-Marathon for a long time. I love the challenge and it's such a great feeling when you push yourself to do something hard.
#2. About getting pregnant... I'm a nut case. For some reason I've never been able to "relax and let it happen" like so many people do. I don't know if it's because I have Endometriosis or if I would be like this anyway, but I worry so much about not being able to conceive that I just obsess over the process of getting pregnant. I'm not one of those people who can say, "Let's try for a baby!" and then is pregnant 2 weeks later. It took about 6 months to get pregnant with both Paige and Kate. I know that 6 months isn't terribly long, but when you are paranoid about infertility, each month is like eternity. See? I'm crazy. I've already been wishing I was pregnant for the last 6 months, and I haven't even had a postpartum period yet. Ugh. Who knows when Baby #3 will come.
So here I am again, obsessed. If I'm not tracking ovulation, stocking up on pregnancy tests at the Dollar Store, reading babycenter articles, etc., I feel like I'm not doing enough to make it happen. Maybe I'm just extremely impatient. I wish I was super fertile. But then again, I know some people who are super fertile and wish they weren't.
#3. I wish I didn't love food so much. I've cut back on my baking addiction drastically though, so maybe that will help. I would love to start out my next pregnancy at a better weight, so that I won't have as much to lose afterward. Don't we all wish that?
7 comments:
That's really cool that you are running so much. It's so good for you health, and it will make you in better shape! I don't know if I want to do the 5k anymore. I'm not training like at all! Yikes. I might just go running right now.
just have sex every day. then you don't have to chart anything.
What's sex?
Don't have sex every day! haha.. no offense to stephanie. But that just depleats the inventory ;) I charted for months and months when trying for our second, it was a waste. Ovulation tests actually worked really well for me. They didn't work the first month but they did the second. I finally resorted to trying them after we had been trying for 18 months. Actually, we tried for a couple of months, got pregnant, miscarried that pregnancy and I COULD NOT GET PREGNANT again.. I swear.. it was crazy. I actually did 2 specific blog posts on this issue if you want to read them :) Maybe they will bring you a little comfort.
http://russandteryn.blogspot.com/2009/08/ovulation-tests.html
http://russandteryn.blogspot.com/2009/09/so-i-tried-ovulation-tests.html
good luck!
Have you read the book 'Taking Charge of Your Fertility'? It will completely change your thinking- I learned SO much!
I think it's awesome that you're doing a half marathon- way to go!
YAY for running! It's such a great way to get healthy and accomplishing a goal like that is amazing.
I like to think that I am pretty close to being an expert on the whole secondary infertility thing. I did every test, every trick and saw every specialist. You want to know the secret....
You have no control over this sister. Yes, you have to have sex but that's about it. Heavenly Father has a plan. You and Nate are good people, you are a covenant couple. Your family will come when and how Heavenly Father wants it to. The most important thing you can do right now is focus on submitting to His will. This is not easy...not at all. Put all the energy you are putting into getting pregnant into getting close to the Lord. The spirit will whisper to you if/when you are supposed to do anything "special". The spirit will also comfort you in a way that no one else can. I am here. Please let me be a listening ear or a shoulder to cry on. I know how that six months feels like an eternity...Hang in there.
You are so funny to me ! You are naturally a small person ... so, you really don't have any chubs to lose! Good luck with the marathon ... but if your body isn't used to the training you are doing for that ... maybe that is why you aren't getting pregnant yet. Just a thought. And the Lord works on His timetable for sure. Mike is out of work and only getting his masters right now ... and we were not planning on getting preg until he was working again ... but here I am 21 wks along. I didn't tell Mike for the 1st wk once I found out because I was freakin' out that we didn't have a job and insurance at the time. All I know - it is we are now very excited about it ... but it was stressful and a big shock at 1st. It will happen - you are the cutest mom in the world !
If I could have passed my fertility onto anyone I would have passed it onto you.
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