The dream made me realize that I am desperate for something to be proud of. I don't know if that thing is a half-marathon, but I just know that I need to challenge myself and overcome my self-doubt. I'm learning that I generally don't believe that I can do great things or hard things. I limit myself all the time.
Being a mom is really hard. I'm sure I don't need to tell you that. The hardest part for me is not feeling like I am making a difference in the world. I think it's difficult for moms to feel worthwhile and fulfilled because we usually can't see the results of our efforts right away. I know motherhood is such an important calling and I am so thankful that I was able to have my girls, but I'm searching for something that makes me unique, and something that I am passionate about. I wonder if I'll ever find it.
I think training for and completing a half-marathon would really boost my self-confidence. It's one way that I could prove to myself that I can actually do hard things and accomplish my goals. I need to do it. I have wanted to do one for a long time now. If not that, then I have to think of something else to work toward. I'm feeling pretty lost and restless lately. I will let you know when I finally figure myself out.
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Ash. Let's train for one together! We can find one that's on the same weekend, and do the training at the same time! We can keep each other accountable! How many weeks till you wanna run one?!?
You can do it!!! Look up Hal Higdon's half marathon training guide, and even check out his book at the library. It's totally doable! Heck if I can do it, you can!!
That's exactly why I ran my first half marathon. Literally. It's like you typed out what was in my head. And it was SOOOOO worthwhile. So much so that I just started training for another one this year. It is the greatest feeling of accomplishment you will ever have, especially if you're like me and you hate running. I wish you luck and I hope you find that "thrill" and fulfillment that all us moms need to have.
Those last two sentences I say to Lee ALL the time! Good luck though!! I finally accepted...at least for now...that I just don't feel like running a half marathon. But I'd love to walk one! Let me know if you're interested! ;)
It's always nice to know there is another mom out there who has the same feelings. I wish you were here so we could train together. That would be fun. But you can totally do it! Just tell that voice inside your head to be quiet already!! I also suggest Hal Higdon.... put on your shoes and go for it!
You can totally run a half marathon! I suggest picking one, signing up, and paying so that way you can't back out of it or keep putting it off. Crossing the finish line of a race feels amazing! Once you start you may not stop!
I feel exactly the same way many days- I think you'll do an awesome job with the half marathon!
Just remember, you are making all the difference in the world to your girls; you are their world. :) This was probably more of a reminder to me than it is for you. Good luck if running a half-marathon is what you need! You can do it!
I've actually been considering starting to run. I HATE running (don't even know if I can do a mile at this point), but I feel like I need to do something too. My sister was just telling me how she's going to do a half marathon and it made me really want to do one too, but here's the thing: I'm totally terrified that I won't be able to do it. Not just the marathon, but the training--I've never been good at disciplining myself especially when it comes to things I don't like to do. So with all my rambling, here's what I really want to say: I think we should do one. I think we should train together and just DO IT. What do you think? Kendall's home during the day now, so I don't have to take the kids with me, so you'd be able to use our double jogging stroller if you don't have one. What do you say? Let's just take the plunge and if we fail, well, we fail together :) But at least we can try...I don't have the guts to do it alone--seriously, I'm terrified, but maybe in won't be so scary together.
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